and so now I wait

I did send the email to C. I waited until I came home for lunch, reread it, edited it slightly and sent it. It was gone in a nano-second and that was it. I resisted checking email during the afternoon but it didn't matter, not a peep.

I asked him to consider coming back to start a new phase of our relationship. We'll be apart a lot for the next six months but I think there could be a way for us both to be happy.

My thoughts though, regardless of how things proceed, I need to make plans to leave here. I live in Los Angeles and never intended to be here longer than three weeks. It's now about twelve years.

It's a common story, came to LA, fell in love, broke up, stayed, fell in love again, and so the cycle goes on. Now I need to get out finally. I have never felt happy here and never liked American men, believe me, I've tried and for me, the sense of humour is seriously lacking.