Yo Yo

A Suffolk puff is also know as a Yo-yo in quilting circles. I'm not a quilter but I have been using this technique for sewing noses for my toys. It works quite well.

Today I sewed all day trying to get toys done for a company in New York who are developing prototypes in China based on my patterns.

I finished a pretty good shark and the third attempt worked quite well. I also made a second version of the cat head and I think it looks extremely cute.

I'm quite tired but feel as though it was a productive day. It also crossed my mind that perhaps I could approach the above mentioned company and see if there are any openings for a designer/product developer. I'll think it over though as I seem to be having different ideas every second about where to go and what to do. First off, I have to decide what I like to do. The toys are an interesting challenge. It's been difficult developing a 3D form from a 2D drawing. Quite fun too.

I spoke to C and told him I was going to the UK on Friday. He said he thought it was a good idea. My irrational side suddenly screamed in my head (luckily) WHY!!!! Why is it a good idea for me to go away?? Why don't you express how you feel about me? Are we just friends? Is our relationship over? All the things my father has said an Englishman (takes one to know one) can't or won't respond to especially when pressured.

We had a good conversation and I really appreciate the fact that he's calling me (hopefully it's not just to make sure I haven't tried to top myself or anything stupid like that). I'm trying to chill out. I've had a bit of a breakdown over the past few months.

I'm really glad I don't have to go to work tomorrow. I hadn't realised how stressed out I've been, enough was never enough for those people and no matter how hard I worked, how much great design I produced and how many systems I introduced, it was never going to work because they didn't want it to.

So good luck to them. I am confident that my work is good and that they're the type of people who are quite happy to use clip art. They're not designers, they're plagiarizers, they're cheap and to top it off, they're not very nice.

Onward and upward.