Rain

It's been raining all night and I'm been awake for most of it. Too much wine last night, meeting a man who had found me attractive (who left the scene very quickly so perhaps not taken with my personality,) reading a soppy book and so this morning, I cried a little. I know it's the alcohol in my body, I know it's the sound of the rain pouring relentlessly and I know it's the impending festive season but it didn't stop me from having a sad moment which isn't quite over. Memories are with me and it's going to take a monumental effort this morning to drag myself up and out of a potential place of almost self-inflicted misery.

Rationally I know it's mostly the booze talking, that the man wasn't interesting to me (I was bored very quickly) and that I just want to get through the next few weeks. Start a new year and hope it's somewhat better than this year. I've had enough challenges for a while. I'm ready for some good news, some fun and a few laughs but this morning, they're alluding me.

Now I face a day at home, work for money seems to have stopped and with this being the last full week before Christmas I doubt there's much work on the horizon. Perhaps hibernation might be an option. At this point I wouldn't mind hibernating for the next nine months as apparently things will be better by next September...