Tuesday, September 30, 2008

And so it goes on...

I'm focusing on staying busy (or at least trying to) but the nights are bad. As soon as my head hits the pillow I hear C's voice repeating his news. I run over things again and again, how could I have been different? why didn't it work? why didn't he want to try again? but there's no answer and no solution.

The pain is back and it's bad. I try not to cry outside the house and I'm doing a fair job of getting by but it hurts and I worry that there won't be anyone else I love.

I feel so empty inside.

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