it's been a while

It would appear I've come a long way in two months. From the darkest depths of despair to a new frame of mind. June and July saw me working like a mad woman to develop new product concepts, new books and toys and refusing to give up. I read a Tony Robbins book (Awaken the Giant Within) and it gave me the push I needed despite having skepticism. I stopped worrying about what C was doing, after all, he'd decided to go to Florida and get on with his life. I had a meeting in London in July and meetings in New York at the beginning of August and finally, finally, finally my toys are going to be released in October. I pitched new concepts successfully and things are starting to move for my company.

I started designing animal characters, writing children's books and developing a brand of children's products in 2006. It's been a slow process and only made possible by both financial and emotional support from C. I now have toys (which I designed) being released by FAO Schwartz and going into Macy's.

There have been a lot of highs and lows over the past two months but I am committed to positive thinking. I will not ever be as depressed as I was earlier this year. I have made that decision and that choice. And I will not allow myself to be affected by others' negative comments.